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It's 8:30 in the AM. I just lathered a bunch of coconut oil into my scalp, hoping to rid this dandruffy dry scalp thing, and wrapped a blue bandana around my head to hold it for the day. The morning sun is on my face, as I sit in my undies and a sports bra with a pot of limon tea brewing in front of me.

Most mornings I have been sitting out on the back porch of the house we are currently house sitting and listen to the book Eat, Pray, Love on audio for at least a half hour, sipping my tea, soaking up the day's first light with my feet on the moist grass, before making a smoothie, doing some yoga or stretching of sorts, making breakfast, then getting on with the rest of the day. It really has been pretty picturesque perfect mornings; relaxing, and slow paced.

Sometimes my mind runs in giant lists of things I feel like I need to do, this day, week, month, or year. Of things I want to accomplish, how I will accomplish them, when I will accomplish them, how I can make all my life interests and goals really work together - because I am convinced that I can. This morning, in particular, is one of those days. I went to bed last night after looking up yoga retreats in Thailand and a 3-month holistic massage school in Costa Rica; each costing about seven thousand dollars. So, I need to continue doing with what I love in health and fitness, be really successful in the next year (give or take some) and start taking one of these courses. I chuckled to myself a bit as I layed my head down last night. I must be in some sort of transitional phase in my life where I am ready to learn, explore, and grow as a person. I am loving it here in Tepoztlan, but I feel like the most of what it is giving me is a big spoonful of me time. Which is great, it's what I should embrace. Listen to yourself here: It's what you should embrace! Learning more about yourself in this time of solitude, when you have the opportunity, is going to teach you great things about yourself and ultimately help in your big life plans. Listen to yourself.

However, strangely enough, on the back of my mind I can't help but think of something that I have lightly pondered in my head for some time now. I really love the motto to each their own. What if this was a really true way of living? I want to know how the world would be if each person truly respected what everyone else believed in and no one was trying to shove their ideas into any one else's brains. When I play this little world out in my mind the people who believe in God would all accept each others for believing in some sort of God. No one would think my God is THE God, the most mightiest, the one who will ACTUALLY save you. The atheists would have their own place in society, naturally - there's a place for e v e r y o n e and people would be able to hold meaningful conversations listening to each other's insight and truly thinking it's interesting to hear another's point of view, without feeling threatened or simply not hearing one word this other person is saying because you can't help but think they are sooo wrong right now or that is absolutely not what I believe. I imagine people who are really gung-ho about recycling would collect recycling from the people who "don't believe in it" and they would have some sort of cheerful exchange, because the people who don't believe in it would at least be open to it. Instead of cramming all their recyclable items in the trash in spite of the goddamn hippies. Of course you would have people who weren't sure what they believed, but that is beside the point. They would find their place eventually, or they wouldn't, but it would all be okay. I want to live in a place where we step away from some societal embeddedness and start lightly accepting people for simply being people. Now I realize this is entirely unrealisitc, however a part of me truly believes it could be made possible if we got rid of money (but that's entirely another story), but I do have a point here. We all have our own individual opinions and motives in life. The people that are ambitious are going to go for it and succeed! The folks who aren't sure what they want are going to take their time and maybe have a little harder time figuring out their place. I want it all to be okay. I want it all to be acceptable. I really want all folks to start realizing that they can have a good day because they feel like it and no one else can influence that! If someone makes a rude comment to you or doesn't smile back, that's on them. We are all going through something at some point in life, whether you can see it on the outside or not, and that is the one thing we all know and we all seem to forget about. Please, let your ego fall to the side a bit. Embrace the day because you are you. Own everything you do. And when the bah-hum-bugs of the world, and frownie Frans cross your path, greet them warmly. A smile, if nothing more. Your attitude makes an impression on people and whether you want to believe it or not, your attitude draws the same attitudes towards you. Just like a day when nothing seems to go right for you. Keep your chin up, it will turn around sooner than later. For that matter, if you are having an off day, don't be afraid to admit that to others. If you are quiet or short with someone, you can tell them you're having an off day. We are so scared to be vulnerable in our society, so scared to be, well, ourselves. How sad is that? Here is one of my favorite quotes:

"We’re all one thing, lieutenant. Thats what I've come to realize. Like cells in a body. ’Cept we can't see the body. The way fish can't see the ocean. And so we envy each other. Hurt each other. Hate each other. How silly is that? A heart cell hating a lung cell."

There is some food for thought for your morning. I am going to listen my audiobook now, sip my morning tea, and feed this yowling little calico.

Make it a wonderful, delightful, day. Keep your chin up - portray confidence, smile if you can, and if you can't, then just reflect today. Remember, every single day is a new day and in everything you do you are helping build the path that you are walking down. Choose what's right for you.